Thursday, April 30, 2009
I had Mcdonald's this morning......
I really wanted a big greasy breakfast sandwich and hash brown though. I made it through my craving!!!!! Yeah!!!!
Wednesday, April 29, 2009
Trying to live with obstacles
I JUST DON"T GET IT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
I'm trying to make myself better and here he is complaining about a lousy six dollars I spent on apples! What the heck. He never bitched about the bags of chips, or the $30.00 spent on hot wings, or the countless bags of grease laden, fatty, artery clogging foods that make you gain 6 million trillion pounds. No he has to bitch about the one thing that will help me lose weight.
Never mind the fact that I deal with food temptations and the desire to binge daily. He has to come in and complain about an apple! I want to stuff my face with a box full of Twinkies right there, and I can't even stand Twinkies! *Don't worry, I didn't binge, indulge, or satisfy myself at all! I had a point to prove here!*
Next week I'm going for the expensive fruit. That will really get him going! Hee Hee
Tuesday, April 28, 2009
I've realized something today.......
So what is the difference this time?? After a few lengthy conversations with myself ....(really....I'm not crazy!) I have realized that I am ready this time. I'm really ready to shed my fat coat and come out once and for all. Is it all a mentality thing? Do you really have to be ready to lose weight for it to come off?? Of all the success stories I have read, every single one of them has tried 10 billion different diets, and all ending in the same failure. So why did the last one work? Why did it finally all come together?? My thoughts are that these success stories finally believed that they deserved a happy ending! So regardless of what your doing to lose weight, your mind has to be in the same boat, you have to want it more than anything you have ever wanted before.
And I'll just say that right now I've never wanted it so badly in my life!!
Monday, April 27, 2009
5K Heart Run!
Before the run!!
So as soon as we started going I cranked up my Ipod and we were off. I ended up losing Brittany and felt bad but I had to keep going. My only thought was finishing my 3 miles in under 45 minutes. I was being passed left and right and really realized that I was pretty slow, but at least I was doing it. At one point this elderly man passed me and he was power walking. I guess that's part of the difference in 6 foot legs versus 5 foot legs!! HA HA I passed the 1.5 mile marker and was amazed at how good I felt. The next thing I knew I was in the home stretch and it was the most amazing experience. Everyone along the way is yelling for you, telling you to keep it up your doing a great job. I finally made it to that finish line chute and gave it everything I had. I crossed the finish in a big ball of tears. I really completed a 3 mile run at 215 lbs. And I beat my goal by 1 minute!!! My official start to finish time was 44:01:05.
After my 5K run!!!
I really did it! I really conquered my doubts and proved that I've had this in me all along. It's just taken a really long time to come to realization........a really long painful time!
My Aunt is a Marathon runner and her and her friend gave me some great advice. It's not how fast or slow you are........ You need to run "your" run!........ One foot in front of the other........ The hardest part is getting to the starting line.
My mother has also been the biggest support for me. She believes in me when I don't believe in myself. She's my motivation a lot of the time as I keep myself going hoping to make her prouder of me than she already is. Thank you mom for helping me through this and always believing I am capable of more then I let myself believe!
My next goal is the run for women. 5 Miles here I come!!!!!!!!!!!
Thursday, April 23, 2009
Speaking of running
I think I just want to be barbie that's all!!!
Updating....
The 21st was my birthday. I normally work every birthday as it's not that big of a deal to me. Well this year was strange. Turning 29 has been frightening and eye opening. I really only have 1 year left until I'm 30. That's a huge milestone for me. I want to use this next year to the best of my ability and completely change my life. I want to be at a healthy weight, enjoy being active with my family and above all else just be happy! SO I took the day off of work
I spent the day with my husband, just enjoying the day really. We went to lunch and then stopped by a cycle shop and purchased two beautiful (and way to expensive) bikes. Who said getting in shape and healthy was cheap! We went out for our first bike ride and I loved it. Let's just say that biking outside is much more difficult than doing the stationary bike in the gym. I was pretty tired. Especially considering I was towing a 30 lb two year old in a bike trailer as well. My butt was so sore the next day though. I think I need on of those big mama seats. You know the ones that have 3 inches of padding and are so wide you are embarrassed to even get off of the bike. Yep, that's what I need!
Yesterday was busy as all can be with missing a day of work, so I wasn't able to get in a workout. I thought 10 at night might be a little late to go out for a run. It stays pretty light outside here now, but I was still a little scared. SO I made up for my missed run today. I headed to the gym and ended up running 2.15 miles. I was so thrilled with myself and the fact that I have the determination and the ability to do that. I am running the 3 mile heart run on Saturday so I'm hoping to make it all the way through without walking. All I can do is try!!
Monday, April 20, 2009
Anchorage Alaska Heart Run
Have I told you that I LOVVVVE my Iphone?? Well, I do!! I found an application for it last week called Imapmyrun. It uses the GPS in the phone to locate where I am at, and then tracks my distance as well as the pace I am running. After I am finished running it saves my information in a training log so I can look back on it at a later time. I love it. It keeps me aware of how fast or slow I am going as well as keeping me from obsessing over how far I actually went. Three cheers for technology. What did we ever do before???
Here's to a great week full of accomplishments and weight loss.
Saturday, April 18, 2009
Drum Roll Please........
Running = Weight Loss
That's all for today. Just had to share my major excitement!!!!!
Friday, April 17, 2009
Striving for my goals
This is me and my littlest man after my run last night!
Never in my life have I really ever set a goal like this before. I've never pushed myself to really complete anything except for high school and a CNA program. I've never reached my goal weight, I've never worked out consistently, I've never really done anything above and beyond what I'm supposed to, yet alone finish it. I'm setting out to change that, and hopefully the next four months I'll find a new me along the way!! :)
The funny thing too, is that the scale seems to be dropping now that I bumped up my workouts. The last three days I have watched it drop down lower and lower and today it finally said that I am .5 lbs lighter than I was 2 weeks ago. I'll take it thank you very much! I know it's not a weigh in day, and I know it's not good to obsess over the scale and weigh yourself everyday, but it makes me feel good right now. I see progress and that's all I need. Yahooooo!
Tuesday, April 14, 2009
ADDICTED!!!
Friday, April 10, 2009
CuPcAkEs ;)
We'll see if I can hang on to that will power through Easter weekend! YIKES!
Wednesday, April 8, 2009
Wednesday Workout
Workout summary:
Strength Training Lower Body - 22 minutes / 152 calories burned
Cardio - 51 minutes - 623 calories burned
Average heart rate - 152
Highest heart rate - 172
Of course all this information is provided to me from my heart rate monitor. I love that thing. It was the best $150.00 I have ever spent. I would totally recommend it to everyone!! Oh.....and one more thing. The scale at the gym indicates I am down a pound from last week so I am hoping I was just a little puffy this morning when I weighed myself. Thank you gym scale!!!
Weigh In
I am a faithful watcher of The Biggest Loser. I can't get enough of it. I think I find a lot of inspiration in Kristin. She always amazes me. She has lost an incredible amount of weight and keeps on going. She withstood the temptation of eating all that crappy food and showed it by losing 8 lbs. I want to be like her when I grow up!!
I know that weight loss is a lifelong thing and it will never happen overnight, so I guess if I've had a small gain that's okay. I know my body is changing, as this weekend when I went to put on my snow pants they were no longer tight!! I think last time I wore them they had to be left open at the top because they were cutting me off in the middle. Maybe it's time to start measuring and get rid of the dang scale.
So now I am at 15.5 down in 12 weeks. Still not too shabby! Maybe next week will bring more progress. I'll update you this afternoon and let you know how the gym went!! Thanks to all my new friends for all the encouragement. It is appreciated more than you know!!! :)
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
It's Tuesday!
Today I get to have lunch with my best friend whom I rarely get to see anymore. With kids and work and living about 40 minutes away it makes it kind of hard. I also get to have the world's best salad!! Yummy!! I am so ready for lunch and I have 3 hours to wait. Oh well.....I guess all good things come in time!!
Weigh in is tomorrow for me so I am hoping for a loss. Even a tiny one would make me happy!!
Friday, April 3, 2009
Why????
I look like a football player. Why such the big bulky broad stance?? AAAHHHHGGG! I want to just throw up. I hate it. I guess it's extra motivation to keep going to the gym. I like the face shots much better!! :)
Looking back......
Isn't it funny how you can look back at old photographs and think, man I wish I was that size again. And in all reality you really thought you were fat at that time. I look back at some older pictures and just wish I was back to that same me. Look at what I have let myself become. So here's a picture of myself about 12 years ago and boy do I wish I looked like that again.
Well minus the glasses I would like to look like that!! Those things are huge and hideous!! *hee hee* That just cracks me up!!
So in my search for a full body shot my mom commented and suggested that I post a few pictures from throughout my life. Here's some from baby on up. Enjoy the picture show!!
That's a baby me!!
That's me on the far right!
This is the year I met my soon to be husband only 11 years later!
16 years old!
Senior Prom in 1998!! Scary that I even just posted that pic! It's horrible.
Senior Picture. Looking kind of cute here!
21st Birthday and getting fatter by the day!! Shortly after this pic, I ballooned up to 260 pounds. It is quite scary and one of these days I will post the picture I have. I lost about 30 pounds doing the Atkins thing with my mom!
This picture is from November 2008, a month before I started this journey. Can you tell I am still trying to hide??
I am now down 17 lbs and so very happy with the outcome so far. Maybe I'll take an updated picture today to post!!
Thursday, April 2, 2009
Pictures
I am having the hardest time ever. I have been searching for a full body picture of myself to use as my before picture. It seems as of right now to be non-existant. Funny how that is. I think back to getting pictures taken and me always telling my husband that he needed to zoom in closer and just get a shot of our faces. Really??? A fat girl doesn't want a full body photograph. Well, NO!!! That would mean she would have to look fat. And god forbid that a fat girl looks fat!! Who was I kidding. So needless to say, I am still on the search. There has to be some hideous fat girl full body shot somewhere. Let me know if you snuck one in on me. I know I don't have any. :)
Running
Then for some unknown reason I had the urge to get on the treadmill and see if I could muster up the courage to run. SO I get on and start walking at a fast pace, with a slight incline. I'm walking and the whole time I'm telling myself bump up that speed and get running. Did I do it......NOOOOOOO!! I kept thinking to myself "everyone is going to be watching me". Running involves your whole body, and well, when your heavy that's just not a pretty sight. I really want to run though and I have no idea why. I've heard all the info about how bad it is on your body, and that women shouldn't run. Blah, Blah, Blah........BUT I WANT TO RUN!!!!! I even have been having dreams about running. Who knows why!! So my goal is to gather the courage to embarrass myself in front of the whole gym and just go for it. I'll let you know how it goes. :)
Here's a picture of my littlest man. He's just the cutest!!! I may be a little biased though!